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Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i'm scared

someone told me that malaikat maut will come around and see us "70 times in 24 hours"....manusia tak pernah sedar akan kehadiran malaikat maut sebab malaikat maut adalah makhluk ghaib.....ketika malaikat maut datang untuk menatap wajah kita sebanyak 70kali itu, manusia sedang bergembira dan begelak tawa sampai tak ingat dunia...........hurmmm...malaikat akan hairan, bingung, tertanya-tanya...."kenapa manusia2  ini terlampau HAPPY sedangkan aku datang untuk mencabut nyawa mereka at anytime, any place?? " 


i'm scared..i'm scared...i'm scared..........
i dont know why each time somebody told me bout DEATH, my body's shaking like i was starving food,mcm tak pernah makan nasi dalam satu minggu.......i'm really3 scared...it made me down and blue all the time when i was thinking bout it...haih.....semua orang takut mati...the same goes to me..my biggest fear is death...


hurm...i was in my MLS class.,Pn Siti Hajar talked bout death....again! i was scared...,,and i froze thinking when will i die and how.....at night i was crying then come to think off it.. is there anybody out there.........NO....i was all alone in my room......


i was just wondering......what if tomorrow i died,...........am i ready enough to face Allah? Malaikat munkar and nakir? what would be my anwser when they ask me a few questions like "Maaa Rabbuka" siapa tuhan kamu"?  im sooooooooooo scared,,.ya Allah...please forgive me for the sins I committed in the past...and those I will commit in the future.....please GUIDE me ya Allah,and guide my parents,my siblings,my lover, my grandparents,my cousins,my aunts and uncles, and so forth......please forgive me for my shortcomings, for only You are PERFECT...please forgive me if I ever got too wrapped in a matter.....that I didn’t have time to utter Your name...ya Allah...I am weak so pleaaaaase help me.........i know will only grow stronger by Your strength,so pleaaaaaase strengthen me...to fight syaitan and his whispers..if I ever fell into his trap and followed my desirer, then please forgive me,....ya Allah...please forgive me for all the FOUL words I spoke either out of my ignorance or because I was trying to be COOL...please forgive me for all the yelling I’ve done and the arguments I’ve been in...i know i'm too WEAK...=(    please please please please forgive me for my thoughts,even though I get sinned for my actions,...i cannot help but feel guilty.....................................





Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Alhamdulillah

Syukur Alhamdulillah everything went OK today...Yesterday i was soooooooo tired after having soooooooooo many classes to attend...my mind got tired tooooo,...and today i think i need enough rest and sleep...i'm tired of being tired..l've to relax n free my mind from all "RIDICULOUS" thing in my mind ,.. BUT.......
There is an endless list of things to do it seems. Where should i start? The more i think about it, all i want to do is go back to bed. I don't have the ENERGY needed to just dig in. Why am i feeling this way? It's as if there is an enemy within battling me...and the enemy is FATIGUE...oh my gOdness...

Thanx God, Alhamdulillah, i believe only Allah can help me to get rid of those bad feelings of depression, boredom, worry, or unhappiness in my life..Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.....


Turn towards Allah, , so that perhaps i will have my success, and WE will have our success....InsyaAllah...

Allah is the most holy, the most pure and the most perfect!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My feelings

if i could paint the sky with the feelings i have in my heart for you....i would....
but since i cannot, i asked Allah to...............