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Monday, May 17, 2010

i believe in God

..............Allah swt gives me strength........

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Thank You

All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you'r there.
For sinful though I know I'm, your displeasure I cannot bear.
Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when I should have prayed.
For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries thru Life,
Why didn't I realize sooner, that earth is but a place of sport?
Ya Allah..Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jannah though they fell.
Ya Allah..Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
Let me not falter ever, for Jannah is the abode I seek.
Ya, Allah..Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you were near?
My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
Ya Allah..Please guide me. What happened, what went wrong?
Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my side.
The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasulullah my beloved guide.
How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day comes near.
When we'll each receive our just rewards, and truth will stand sparkling clear.
Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its trick snare
So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we cannot spare.
I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah.. Why did I fall so low?
What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with night.
Man is an imperfect creature. And thus, Man shall always wrong.
For the road to Jannah is rocky, and the journey seems awfully long.
Ya Allah...Our creator, we are all just pieces of clay.
Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.
All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear.

forwarded thru email by farah azila...

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i'm scared

someone told me that malaikat maut will come around and see us "70 times in 24 hours"....manusia tak pernah sedar akan kehadiran malaikat maut sebab malaikat maut adalah makhluk ghaib.....ketika malaikat maut datang untuk menatap wajah kita sebanyak 70kali itu, manusia sedang bergembira dan begelak tawa sampai tak ingat dunia...........hurmmm...malaikat akan hairan, bingung, tertanya-tanya...."kenapa manusia2  ini terlampau HAPPY sedangkan aku datang untuk mencabut nyawa mereka at anytime, any place?? " 

i'm scared..i'm scared...i'm scared..........
i dont know why each time somebody told me bout DEATH, my body's shaking like i was starving food,mcm tak pernah makan nasi dalam satu minggu.......i'm really3 scared...it made me down and blue all the time when i was thinking bout it...haih.....semua orang takut mati...the same goes to me..my biggest fear is death...

hurm...i was in my MLS class.,Pn Siti Hajar talked bout death....again! i was scared...,,and i froze thinking when will i die and how.....at night i was crying then come to think off it.. is there anybody out there.........NO....i was all alone in my room......

i was just wondering......what if tomorrow i died,...........am i ready enough to face Allah? Malaikat munkar and nakir? what would be my anwser when they ask me a few questions like "Maaa Rabbuka" siapa tuhan kamu"?  im sooooooooooo scared,,.ya Allah...please forgive me for the sins I committed in the past...and those I will commit in the future.....please GUIDE me ya Allah,and guide my parents,my siblings,my lover, my grandparents,my cousins,my aunts and uncles, and so forth......please forgive me for my shortcomings, for only You are PERFECT...please forgive me if I ever got too wrapped in a matter.....that I didn’t have time to utter Your name...ya Allah...I am weak so pleaaaaase help me.........i know will only grow stronger by Your strength,so pleaaaaaase strengthen me...to fight syaitan and his whispers..if I ever fell into his trap and followed my desirer, then please forgive me,....ya Allah...please forgive me for all the FOUL words I spoke either out of my ignorance or because I was trying to be COOL...please forgive me for all the yelling I’ve done and the arguments I’ve been in...i know i'm too WEAK...=(    please please please please forgive me for my thoughts,even though I get sinned for my actions,...i cannot help but feel guilty.....................................

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


Syukur Alhamdulillah everything went OK today...Yesterday i was soooooooo tired after having soooooooooo many classes to attend...my mind got tired tooooo,...and today i think i need enough rest and sleep...i'm tired of being tired..l've to relax n free my mind from all "RIDICULOUS" thing in my mind ,.. BUT.......
There is an endless list of things to do it seems. Where should i start? The more i think about it, all i want to do is go back to bed. I don't have the ENERGY needed to just dig in. Why am i feeling this way? It's as if there is an enemy within battling me...and the enemy is FATIGUE...oh my gOdness...

Thanx God, Alhamdulillah, i believe only Allah can help me to get rid of those bad feelings of depression, boredom, worry, or unhappiness in my life..Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.....

Turn towards Allah, , so that perhaps i will have my success, and WE will have our success....InsyaAllah...

Allah is the most holy, the most pure and the most perfect!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My feelings

if i could paint the sky with the feelings i have in my heart for you....i would....
but since i cannot, i asked Allah to...............

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Everytime i wake up in the morning, i'll reach my phone texting whoever i know "me...nightmare again"....... 
In every moment of our life we'll face the possibility of death. It is not surprising therefore that the subject of death figures in my dreams. 
Such dreams enable me or anybody to becOme aware of what our deepest fears or feelings are regarding our own death, or the death of someone we luRve or know. But they also hv the possibility of showing us what our fullest inner wisdom or intuitions are about what it means to die.

When that time comes, it is too LATE,
To take back all those words of hate.
To reflect on all the things we did wrong,
To wish we hadn't listened to that last song.
Death can catch us all by SURPRISSSSE,
Remember that the next time we tell our lies.
Is this how we want to be resurrected on Judgement Day?
Being brought up to Allah in such a shameful way?
No one is guaranteed to live until tomorrow,
When we pass away it brings our family great SORROWW.
Why not leave our family with great RESPECT and DIGNITY,
Instead of mother saying"I wish she listened to me".
The care-free, shame-less, lifestyle is beautified be the west,
But all I can say is ALLAH KNOWS BEST.
Which brings me back to one question:
Why would you want to die in such a shameful way,

Only to be resurrected like that on Judgement Day.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


I felt profoundly ashamed, I was very much upset.....................

Thursday, January 21, 2010

When your crush.........

.................sends u a mixed signal..................................

One minute it seems like a boy likes you. He winnks at you or teases you in that "just kidding" kind of way. He asks if you are going the hayride. Huurrrrrrmmmmmm...you think - what does it mean? Then the next minute, you hear he likes someone else and he's cozying up to her during the very same hayride he asked if you were attending! What gives? My goodness!!

But before we blame it all on boys and their impossible-to-understand ways, girls are guilty, toooo. I know, my friend has felt one way about a guy one minute and the next minute she's not so sure.. hurmmmmm...Even more often, I wonder if she's giving mixed signals to guys who might like her, but she doesn't even realize it. Is it a mixed signal to say hye to someone or say, "I like your shirtt"...

Blurrrrr for a while,,,,,,,,,wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

The way a person feels inside is important. It can be really hard not to tell anyone that you're feeling sad, worried, or upset. Then, it's just you and these bad feelings. If you keep feelings locked inside, it can even make you feeeeel sick!

But if you talk with someone who cares for you, like your mum or dad or your bestiesss, you will almost always start to feel better. Now you're not all alone with your problems or worries. It doesn't mean your problems and worries disappear magically, but at least someone else knows what's bothering you and can help you find solutions.
Your mum and dad want to know if you have problems because they love you and they want to know what's happening in your life.

Sometimes its kinda useless to talk or think about all those things..........

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.