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Monday, May 17, 2010

i believe in God

..............Allah swt gives me strength........

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Thank You

All praises are for you Allah, how I hope that you'r there.
For sinful though I know I'm, your displeasure I cannot bear.
Never, till this moment, did I realize how much I've strayed.
Never, till now, was I more conscious of all those times when I should have prayed.
For sins are like heavy baggage, that one carries thru Life,
Why didn't I realize sooner, that earth is but a place of sport?
Ya Allah..Forgive me. Save me from the fire of Hell.
Forgive me as you did my parents, from Jannah though they fell.
Ya Allah..Protect me. From myself for my soul is weak.
Let me not falter ever, for Jannah is the abode I seek.
Ya, Allah..Please help me. For I don't understand and thus, I fear.
What happened to all those moments when I never doubted that you were near?
My actions once were guided, by my faith which, once, was strong.
Ya Allah..Please guide me. What happened, what went wrong?
Each footstep that I used to take, I took with you ever near my side.
The Quran was my faithful companion, Rasulullah my beloved guide.
How I yearn for those bygone days Allah, for I know that the day comes near.
When we'll each receive our just rewards, and truth will stand sparkling clear.
Life is like a spider's web Allah. We get caught in its trick snare
So thoroughly are we disillusioned, time for salat we cannot spare.
I sit here and I wonder, Ya Allah.. Why did I fall so low?
What happened to my faith Allah? Where did my Iman go?
In this earthly life of ours, so often does sin seem right.
Falsehood seems to be the truth, as if days are confused with night.
Man is an imperfect creature. And thus, Man shall always wrong.
For the road to Jannah is rocky, and the journey seems awfully long.
Ya Allah...Our creator, we are all just pieces of clay.
Please help us with our steps in life, and let us not lose our way.
All praises are for you Allah, I know that you are near.
I know that you have read my heart, and my words I know you hear.

forwarded thru email by farah azila...

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

i'm scared

someone told me that malaikat maut will come around and see us "70 times in 24 hours"....manusia tak pernah sedar akan kehadiran malaikat maut sebab malaikat maut adalah makhluk ghaib.....ketika malaikat maut datang untuk menatap wajah kita sebanyak 70kali itu, manusia sedang bergembira dan begelak tawa sampai tak ingat dunia...........hurmmm...malaikat akan hairan, bingung, tertanya-tanya...."kenapa manusia2  ini terlampau HAPPY sedangkan aku datang untuk mencabut nyawa mereka at anytime, any place?? " 

i'm scared..i'm scared...i'm scared..........
i dont know why each time somebody told me bout DEATH, my body's shaking like i was starving food,mcm tak pernah makan nasi dalam satu minggu.......i'm really3 scared...it made me down and blue all the time when i was thinking bout it...haih.....semua orang takut mati...the same goes to me..my biggest fear is death...

hurm...i was in my MLS class.,Pn Siti Hajar talked bout death....again! i was scared...,,and i froze thinking when will i die and how.....at night i was crying then come to think off it.. is there anybody out there.........NO....i was all alone in my room......

i was just wondering......what if tomorrow i died,...........am i ready enough to face Allah? Malaikat munkar and nakir? what would be my anwser when they ask me a few questions like "Maaa Rabbuka" siapa tuhan kamu"?  im sooooooooooo scared,,.ya Allah...please forgive me for the sins I committed in the past...and those I will commit in the future.....please GUIDE me ya Allah,and guide my parents,my siblings,my lover, my grandparents,my cousins,my aunts and uncles, and so forth......please forgive me for my shortcomings, for only You are PERFECT...please forgive me if I ever got too wrapped in a matter.....that I didn’t have time to utter Your name...ya Allah...I am weak so pleaaaaase help me.........i know will only grow stronger by Your strength,so pleaaaaaase strengthen me...to fight syaitan and his whispers..if I ever fell into his trap and followed my desirer, then please forgive me,....ya Allah...please forgive me for all the FOUL words I spoke either out of my ignorance or because I was trying to be COOL...please forgive me for all the yelling I’ve done and the arguments I’ve been in...i know i'm too WEAK...=(    please please please please forgive me for my thoughts,even though I get sinned for my actions,...i cannot help but feel guilty.....................................

Wednesday, February 3, 2010


Syukur Alhamdulillah everything went OK today...Yesterday i was soooooooo tired after having soooooooooo many classes to attend...my mind got tired tooooo,...and today i think i need enough rest and sleep...i'm tired of being tired..l've to relax n free my mind from all "RIDICULOUS" thing in my mind ,.. BUT.......
There is an endless list of things to do it seems. Where should i start? The more i think about it, all i want to do is go back to bed. I don't have the ENERGY needed to just dig in. Why am i feeling this way? It's as if there is an enemy within battling me...and the enemy is FATIGUE...oh my gOdness...

Thanx God, Alhamdulillah, i believe only Allah can help me to get rid of those bad feelings of depression, boredom, worry, or unhappiness in my life..Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah.....

Turn towards Allah, , so that perhaps i will have my success, and WE will have our success....InsyaAllah...

Allah is the most holy, the most pure and the most perfect!!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My feelings

if i could paint the sky with the feelings i have in my heart for you....i would....
but since i cannot, i asked Allah to...............

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


Everytime i wake up in the morning, i'll reach my phone texting whoever i know "me...nightmare again"....... 
In every moment of our life we'll face the possibility of death. It is not surprising therefore that the subject of death figures in my dreams. 
Such dreams enable me or anybody to becOme aware of what our deepest fears or feelings are regarding our own death, or the death of someone we luRve or know. But they also hv the possibility of showing us what our fullest inner wisdom or intuitions are about what it means to die.

When that time comes, it is too LATE,
To take back all those words of hate.
To reflect on all the things we did wrong,
To wish we hadn't listened to that last song.
Death can catch us all by SURPRISSSSE,
Remember that the next time we tell our lies.
Is this how we want to be resurrected on Judgement Day?
Being brought up to Allah in such a shameful way?
No one is guaranteed to live until tomorrow,
When we pass away it brings our family great SORROWW.
Why not leave our family with great RESPECT and DIGNITY,
Instead of mother saying"I wish she listened to me".
The care-free, shame-less, lifestyle is beautified be the west,
But all I can say is ALLAH KNOWS BEST.
Which brings me back to one question:
Why would you want to die in such a shameful way,

Only to be resurrected like that on Judgement Day.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


I felt profoundly ashamed, I was very much upset.....................

Thursday, January 21, 2010

When your crush.........

.................sends u a mixed signal..................................

One minute it seems like a boy likes you. He winnks at you or teases you in that "just kidding" kind of way. He asks if you are going the hayride. Huurrrrrrmmmmmm...you think - what does it mean? Then the next minute, you hear he likes someone else and he's cozying up to her during the very same hayride he asked if you were attending! What gives? My goodness!!

But before we blame it all on boys and their impossible-to-understand ways, girls are guilty, toooo. I know, my friend has felt one way about a guy one minute and the next minute she's not so sure.. hurmmmmm...Even more often, I wonder if she's giving mixed signals to guys who might like her, but she doesn't even realize it. Is it a mixed signal to say hye to someone or say, "I like your shirtt"...

Blurrrrr for a while,,,,,,,,,wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

The way a person feels inside is important. It can be really hard not to tell anyone that you're feeling sad, worried, or upset. Then, it's just you and these bad feelings. If you keep feelings locked inside, it can even make you feeeeel sick!

But if you talk with someone who cares for you, like your mum or dad or your bestiesss, you will almost always start to feel better. Now you're not all alone with your problems or worries. It doesn't mean your problems and worries disappear magically, but at least someone else knows what's bothering you and can help you find solutions.
Your mum and dad want to know if you have problems because they love you and they want to know what's happening in your life.

Sometimes its kinda useless to talk or think about all those things..........

Tuesday, January 19, 2010


If you're alone, I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Cinta sejatiku

I used to have the ONE I luRve the most after my family, which i had to let him go just becozz of my confusion, hilang arah, blurr, (it was same like budak kecik berhingus yang tak tahu apa yang betul dan apa yang salah)......and on that time i really2 needed help, guidance, pedoman, panduan, and tunjuk ajar....i was like someone who was drowning in the middle of sea, seeking for help, but no one hears me.......except Allah..the One I luRve the most, tempat mengadu nasib, menceritakan segala masalah, Hanya Allah maha mendengar, maha pengasih dan maha penyayang....

Now I believe luRve lies at the root of everything. We can therefore realize what we need most to help we gain the inner strength necessary for offering sacrifices. It is our luRve for Allah. How much do we luRve him? Do we luRve Him more than everything else?

Islam asks us to luRve God more than all else..That is why it confronts every Muslim with one simple but profound question: Whom do you love more? Allah, His Messenger and Jihad in His way, or fathers, sons, wives, brothers, wealth, houses, commerce, careers?

Only with such luRve for Allah will sacrifice turn into an inner urge,rather than remaining a compliance with an external exhortation. Then we will derive the true delight and pleasure in fulfilling the demands of iman.

As we all know, there are two types of iman. One remains on our lips and that is the iman which becomes a burden to us. There is another iman which penetrates into the heart that is the iman which becomes a pleasure, a delight, a joy. Once we have this iman, if we are required to give time, money, life or sacrifice,likes and dislikes, opinions, we do it gladly.

How to attain luRve for Allah which exceeds every other love? this kind of question was always running thru my head when i was a heartbroken........
There are not, and cannot be, any precise formula for this purpose. But a few things will help. And each in turn will become a rich inner resource you will need to fulfill the demands of sacrificing.

Remember how He has created me, provided me with everything i need; how infinitely Merciful He is.
Looking at my existence, looking at the universe around me, and everywhere i will see His mercy and care, His wisdom and majesty. As i reflect and ponder over 'His signs', which are everywhere, my luRve for Him will increase.

Remembering Him as often as i can is essential and fundamental. It will help me not only to attain love, but all other resources i need to develop my spirit and capacity of sacrifice, mindful of living in His presence, attaching real value to meeting Him and receiving His rewards, understanding the worth and place of this-worldly life, grateful and humble before Him, fearful of never having done enough, prepared and willing to obey His commands.

Every one of us has to die. Death is not the end of everything, it is only a transition into the next phase. In that phase we will stand face to face with Allah.
None of us likes to die; it is only human. But die we must, and only after death will the doors open to eternal life and blessings.

If we understand the nature and reality of this-worldly life, if we know that we can receive our fair wages only upon meeting Allah, then we will develop two feelings. One, a desire to meet Him, however we may fear Him on account of our own misdeeds. Two, the preparedness to sacrifice everything that belongs to this-world for what we will earn in reward in the Hereafter.

Whatever the nature of sacrifice, and whether big or small tangible or intangible, offer it in gratitude and humility. It so often happens that one begins to get weary and tired of giving in the way of Allah. One, then, begins to say, 'We have already spent so much time; we have already given so much money; how much more shall we give?; we have already made so many sacrifices; what else is required of us?'

This will happen only if we are making sacrifices not to please Allah alone; but then we are motivated by something else. Or, when we do not realize that we should indeed be grateful to Him for every opportunity we get to offer some sacrifice. Also offer every sacrifice in all humility.

Choice to sacrifice should be made willingly. This means that we should, by our own choice, come forward to offer whatever we can to secure Allah's pleasure. Our will should harmonize with His will.

This does not mean that one should not feel any pain or discomfort while making a sacrifice. Once we give up our luRve or our desire or our value, to feel pain is only human. Indeed, if we feel no pain in giving up something, that giving up may not be worth being called a sacrifice.

Thursday, December 24, 2009


Orang kata hidup ni macam roda,sometimes kita akan berada di bawah and sometimes kita akan berada di atas...ujian n dugaan yg kita lalui tersimpan seribu satu hikmah yg kadang2 tidak dapat dilihat oleh mata kasar manusia, hanya Allah sahaja yang lebih mengetahui.....setiap hari kita akan diuji dengan pelbagai dugaan n cabaran, termasuklah hasutan dan godaan syaitan....dan apabila kita terjatuh becoz of tak terdaya melawan dan menghadapi dugaan itu, maka bermacam2 lah conflict "dalam diri" yang akan menguasai setiap orang yg bergelar "insan yang lemah" termasuklah jatuhnya "Self-esteem" which is the mental picture or self-image of who we are, how we look, what we're good at, and what our weaknesses might be.

We all experience problemzzz with self-esteem at certain times in our lives, especially during our teens when we're figuring out whooo we are and wheRre we fit in thiz world. The good news is that, becozz everyone's self-image changes over time, self-esteem is not fixed for life. So if you feeeeelllll that your self-esteem isn't all it could be, you can improve it. The same goes to me.....

Self-esteem is all about how much we feel valued, loved, accepted, and thought well of by others,,,,,,,,and how much we value, lurVve, and accept ourselves. Sometimess i always feeell as if no one will like me or accept me or that i can't do well in anything. Thiz is becoz i've a LOW self-esteem inside me.....I realize..people with
healthy self-esteem are able to feel good about themselves, appreciate their own worth, and take pride in their abilities, skills, and accomplishments.

Obviously, self-esteem can be damaged when someone whose acceptance is important (like a parent or teacher) constantly puts you down. But criticism doesn't have to come from other people. When i was a teeeen, i had an "inner critic," a voice inside me that seems to find fault with everything i did (like ade orang told me to do this and that and so on) And thus,sometimes i did unintentionally model my inner voice after my parents or someone else whose opinion is important to me.

Over time, listening to a -ve inner voice can harm a person's self-esteem just as much as if the criticism were coming from another person. Some people get so used to their inner critic being there that they don't even notice when they're putting themselves down.

How we feel about ourselves can influence how we live our lives. People who feel that they are likable and lovable (in other words people with good self-esteem) have better relationships. They're more likely to ask for help and support from friends and family when they need it. People who believe they can accomplish goals and solve problems are more likely to do well in academic. Having good self-esteem allows you to accept yourself and live life to the fullest.

when i was a prelaw-rian, i learned the subject of "Social Psychology"....here i would like to share some important part of Self-esteem on how to improve our self-esteem...here are some steps to start empowering ourselves:

Try to stop thinking negative thoughts about yourself.
Aim for accomplishments rather than perfection.
View mistakes as learning opportunities.
Try new things.
Recognize what you can change and what you can't.
Set goals.
Take pride in your opinions and ideas.
Make a contribution.
Exercise! You'll relieve stress, and be healthier and happier.
Have fun.
Ever found yourself thinking stuff like "I'd have more friends if I were thinner"? Enjoy spending time with the people you care about and doing the things you love. Relax and have a good time — and avoid putting your life on hold.

No matter what and no matter how it is, the most important thing in our liVes is jadikan Allah The One And The Only One,Dia satu-satunya tempat sandaran hati....

Yakinkan bahawa segala ketentuan dan ketetapannya sangat adil. Segala yang kita terima, yang kita alami adalah kerana Dia sangat mencintai kita dan menetapkan kejadian atau apa yang diberi atau menimpa kita adalah ketentuan dan ketetapannya yang sangat adil. Jika ini ditanamkan, Insya Allah apapun yang menimpa kita akan terasa biasa.